He’s back

So, my husband arrived on time and we picked him up at the airport.

Things have been great since he got back, he’s been fixing things around the house.. helping me and now he’s working. We still have lots to do now that he’s a Canadian citizen. Time to get him onto my bank account, set up health care and get all his Canadian identifications. He has been very happy to be back also. So things are looking up around here.  I am still looking for houses to buy once my inheritance comes in.

We want a house on some acreage, out in the country. Something we can enjoy nature with and our animals can have lots of room to do the same.

Two days ago while my husband was at work, I went to the pool and worked out. It was fun. I think I’m going to do that more often. I’m in okay shape now but I’d like to be in better shape again. My health is alright, although I have to go back to the thyroid specialist for a “follow up” appointment in June. I am hoping he does not tell me I need surgery.  I’ve been thinking about a Zumba class.. they look fun. 🙂

I sure miss Grandma though. I miss having her to talk to, even if it was just a telephone call.

Hubby and I have been having sooooo much sex, its insane. Its nice to finally not feel like a single married woman anymore.

Whelp.

I went to the interview this afternoon.

As I said it was a panel interview consisting of (possibly) my immediate manager and two people from company’s the board of directors. While it is somewhat nerve racking having three people asking you questions and inundating you with scenario’s, I think I killed it. I felt quite in control of the situation and I had them laughing and feeling comfortable. I am sure I came across quite capable and confident.

So.. I will know by Thursday if I got it or not. I guess it’s fingers crossed that nobody more qualified was interviewed.

Also.. its my 4th wedding anniversary.

Hubby is still not back from Germany yet and I am getting tired of passing milestones that aren’t celebrated because I’m a single married woman. 😐

Well, its finished.

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The immigration process I mean.  Its official, my husband is legally allowed to live and work in Canada. All in, it cost me almost around 8 thousand dollars (and him about 3 thousand) to complete the process.

I am happy now that we will be able to plan trips since he can cross borders. I’ve already been to Vegas but I’d like to take him. I was also thinking Hawaii would be fun.

Oh well I guess we’ll see.

At least nothings off the table anymore.

 

One week!

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One week until my husband returns, and has his permanent residence papers all in order and finished. All in, it’s probably cost us almost 8 thousand dollars.. but it was worth it.

It has been a long year apart. With much loss and heartache. I am looking forward to his return and finally having a shoulder to cry on.

Marriage is a funny thing. It’s like my Grandpa used to say “marriage doesn’t solve all your problems”. In fact, it creates quite of few of it’s own. I have never done well with compromise, but I’m learning. Thank God he’s patient. I am not an easy girl to love at times. I am very headstrong.

Grandma’s estate is in the process of being settled.. I miss her so much. Often times I cry just thinking about our times together. Its hard to be without her and grandpa.

ah well.. death is hardest on the ones left behind. The ones who have gone ahead are at peace.

Goodbye Spooky

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My sweet little man, my friend and confidant for 17 years passed away the day before yesterday.
When I woke up he was laying in the bathroom casually looking around. It was not unusual because he was getting his wet food each morning, but he had been refusing food for two days so I was puzzled. He didnt want anything to eat but seemed to enjoy the cool floor.
Within two hours he had layed his head down and wanted me with him, meowing if I tried to leave.. so I didnt. I realized at this point he was going to die.
Since he seemed comfortable i decided to let him die at home. He looked as though he would just pass in his sleep.
Wrong.
Once he became uncomfortable on the floor I got a hospital pad and layed him on it, on the bed in the spare room.
He was comfortable and purring despite lacking energy to move for his last 9 hours of life.
His last five minutes were not so nice, sadly. He threw up 3 times (i had fresh towels in arms reach) and began meowing louder and louder until it was like a cat fight sound, then came the seizures.. my poor boy arched his back and neck violently 3 times and then started staggered breathing.. kind of how a person crying hard breathes.. then those breathes got slower. Then they stopped.
He died with me kissing the top of his head and telling him i love him.
It was such a sad day.

If you are undecided about letting you cat pass away at home (for what its worth) my advice would be not to.

My Spooky was 17 years old and he still had to go through pain in his last 5 minutes of life. I am comforted to know he was purring right up until he started to throw up… and I am glad I did not leave his side all day, he deserved that loyalty and love.

I will miss that kitty. We had a lifetime together.

My son and I buried him in the garden beside Mozi yesterday, on what would have been my Grandmas 94th birthday 😦

RIP Spooky, Mommy loves you so much. Thank you for your love and loyalty.
So much loss lately, I need my man beside me to make it all okay again. 😦

hmm..

The job is still “closed pending fill”. I have always wanted to work with the dead. I am sorry I did not pursue that mortician job when I was offered the training. Who knows.. they may still call. 🙂

Spooky (my oldest cat) is still hanging on. He still has a decent quality of life.. he walks around now and has more energy since I have been giving him specialty wet food once a day as well as giving all my cats a dish of organic coconut oil – which they love. He’s currently snoozing beside me. 🙂

Starting December 1st we have to wear masks at the hospital while on shift. ugh. Have you ever tried to talk for 12 hours with a mask rubbing your face? Its painful. Not to mention it scares the heck out of the patients who have altered cognition. Policies.. smh.

19 years ago today the world lost an icon. Michael Hutchence. Today I remember him, he is one of my all time favorite singers. An amazing talent with an amazing voice.

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I am very sad to say that a few days ago I tried to find one of my besties from childhood on facebook. She was a real wild child and I was excited to see what she’d been up to since we knew each other (I was 15)… when I couldn’t find her on facebook I googled her name only to find her on the missing and murdered aboriginal women’s list for Alberta Canada. Turns out she never tamed her wild ways and ended up being drug addicted and prostituting herself to make ends meet. One of those johns likely murdered her as her body was found in a remote location near a grain silo in 2006. I was gutted to read about all that. Sure she was a “hot mess” but she was also a sweet girl with a great big heart, who had a kind soul. Of course when she drank though, she was feisty.. omg. I wanted to just vent that as it’s been weighing heavily on my mind lately. I am super upset that her murder has never been solved, the killer has never been brought to justice. She was so thrilling to be around, her life was always an adventure and our moments together were always exciting. I can still remember me trying to talk her out of selling her body, towards the end of our time hanging out together.. and her saying “Hey listen, you GIVE it away.. at least I get PAID!” and laughing. Oh Bonnie.. I wish you would have listened. I hope your killer is found and hurt for what he did to you. Whomever he was, I KNOW for certain you laid the boots to him.. and I know you got some good punches in. Rest easy my scrappy friend. Thanks for always telling me how beautiful I was, and thanks for letting your guard down with me during our friendship.. I know that took a lot of courage for you. I’m sending you a big hug to heaven. You were always the beautiful one.

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The weather has turned cold now. I cant wait until my husband is back. It is only a few more months. All his immigration paperwork is finished and it has cost me almost 10 thousand dollars. Money doesn’t matter though, in the end. Having my husband does. Once I get my inheritance we plan on moving to P.E.I or Nova Scotia. Do you know you can get a house there on acreage for 20 thousand dollars? Super cheap! Why live the rat race here when we can live like kings there? Exactly. Plus it’s beautiful. Imagine ocean front property with whales and icebergs floating by.. and the sunsets. I am so excited for that dream.

My sister came to see me last weekend and we spread our mother’s ashes in the same place we spread our Grandfather’s. Mom would have loved that. My sister took it pretty hard, she felt like she was losing her all over again. I felt a sense of relief instead, knowing mom was finally free. She died in 2004 and we’ve taken turns with her urn ever since.. until I said enough was enough. So glad she was on board with that. I love my sister. Over the years she has become an exceptional woman. I’m proud of her. She recently married a wealthy Italian man (thought I was the one who was going to marry an Italian.. my first boyfriend was named Guido! lol) and is living a happy live in his mansion. Good for her.

Well, the sleeping pill is kicking in now, so.. goodnight and be well. ❤