I went to the interview this afternoon.

As I said it was a panel interview consisting of (possibly) my immediate manager and two people from company’s the board of directors. While it is somewhat nerve racking having three people asking you questions and inundating you with scenario’s, I think I killed it. I felt quite in control of the situation and I had them laughing and feeling comfortable. I am sure I came across quite capable and confident.

So.. I will know by Thursday if I got it or not. I guess it’s fingers crossed that nobody more qualified was interviewed.

Also.. its my 4th wedding anniversary.

Hubby is still not back from Germany yet and I am getting tired of passing milestones that aren’t celebrated because I’m a single married woman. 😐


Its 3am


Its 3am and I cant sleep.

I get insomnia when I’m stressed out, and tomorrow is a stressful day. I have a job interview at a place I’d really like to work at. Even worse, the higher up the corporate ladder you climb, the more stressful the interviews. This interview is a “panel interview”. So I’ll have to navigate questions from a panel of 3 executives.  Therefore I should be sleeping, I need to be alert.  Someone tell my brain that?

C’mon brain, give it a rest already.  ugh.

That tv show “love”


I’ve been watching this tv show called “love” on Netflix, and I’m baffled. Is the lead female character really the type of person young people find endearing these days?

She’s a classic self entitled, controlling narcissist… and she’s fucking gross. She looks like she stinks or is some kind of junkie hobo and her character is so promiscuous that in reality she’d have some kind of STD’s.

I find those types of “all about me” people loathsome. I am just baffled that people get warm fuzzies from this show.  In every episode I’ve seen this woman just winds people up, then watches them spin.. the whole show is how this woman manipulates every situation and bosses every one around. How is that appealing? I think she’s horrible and her character needs a psychiatrist.

I seriously don’t get it.

Well, its finished.


The immigration process I mean.  Its official, my husband is legally allowed to live and work in Canada. All in, it cost me almost around 8 thousand dollars (and him about 3 thousand) to complete the process.

I am happy now that we will be able to plan trips since he can cross borders. I’ve already been to Vegas but I’d like to take him. I was also thinking Hawaii would be fun.

Oh well I guess we’ll see.

At least nothings off the table anymore.


Low Carb, High Fat

I managed one day on this horrid diet and then I felt sooooo sick. I am not a big meat eater by any means. This “way of eating” did not work for me. I ate a package of bacon in one day and 4 eggs as well as a pork chop and oh my gosh I was so ill.

I would rather eat whole foods like fruit and veggies, than eat all this fatty sickening meat.

Never again. lol



f62d3716a57eb2be81b003f2cd8d7699Last night I had a dream that Raymond Reddington was my Daddy dom. lol. I don’t know what it is about men with a powerful, “strictly business” personality that draws me in, but its like I crave their affection. Maybe that’s why I love my husband, he can be that way also.. but he is far from Dominant. He has no idea of how to be a Dom and I don’t see him that way.

In my dream Raymond Reddington (James Spader, of course) was simply going about his day and I was with him.. there was nothing sexual about the dreams content, except for the feeling of anticipation that at any moment he could call me to sit on his lap or cuddle.

I guess I miss that. I woke up wondering how in the world I am living such a vanilla life when I am sure there is someone out there who could fit this bill. I guess that’s dreams versus reality though.